- Geraldine is my name. Pink is my colour and white comes along. I love cupcakes. I might be childish in actions but I think like an adult when there's a need to, I can be very ridiculous, stubborn and unreasonable at times. I tend to get impatient then I try to explain things. I love Lil wayne and Jay-Z but Weezy more. I am not weak but I cry, very easily. It's stupid to hate someone pretty. Chances to me are unlimited on the one who deserves it. I can't express myself well verbally, and I can express myself better through words. You don't have to understand anything here because it's my thoughts and feelings. But welcome, if we're on the same boat :)
Aug 24, 2010,6:20 PM
|| Letting go.
I've been thinking for the past 2 days until 4 hours ago about,
whether should I start a brand new chapter of my life.
And here am I, typing out a brand new chapter of my life :)
My brand new day wasn't as good as how I expect it to be.
whether should I start a brand new chapter of my life.
And here am I, typing out a brand new chapter of my life :)
My brand new day wasn't as good as how I expect it to be.
I skipped school today, I woke up on time but I kept telling myself to just continue sleeping since no one cares and I cried twice today. 2 days of drama in the family and it's still not enough for them, it's the 3rd day today. I cried silently many times yesterday and today, I cried twice. How could they not know that their words are hurting? The words that came out from my own father, sister and my grand-aunt's mouth. Are they really my relative? I really hope that they are not. I'm sick and tired of this family. I kept quiet but they would just find any reasons to pick on me. They made me feel like I'm just an outsider, as if I'm not a part of their family. How can they treat me this way? Just because I am the only child whom my mom took away when I was just a kid? Was it my choice? But I really thank god for taking me away from them.. I can't imagine what type of person I'll be now if I wasnt taken away. Evil? Selfish? It really scares me.
This was what my grand-aunt told me today :
Xoxo, hiff.
This was what my grand-aunt told me today :
You should be happy that you are here in this family. We pity you so we let you move in with us. If not you will be in prison like your other relatives now, NO EDUCATION. We took you in and we want you to study hard and earn money next time. What for we waste so much money for you to study? You are wasting our money! Next time grow up how to give the family money? You are taking advantage in this family. You don't know how to do anything! You are very stupid! You never appreciate us. Don't make me go to your house and break your laptop! I don't care!Family? Pity? Advantage? Money? Hmm....? Sounds like there was a motive before "adopting" me. But it's alright because I've lost all my hopes in this 'orphanage'. It's already over the limit. I really thank them for motivating me.
Xoxo, hiff.
Labels: settling down for a permanent lifestyle.