I wanna say this to my baobei, Claudia.



Seriously, I am lost. Can someone tell me why the fuck am I doing this? Why am I going through such pain for no reasons...? I'm so tired, I slept at 4am and woke up at 8am. !!!!!!

I had a bad dream last night,

I was at his house and he was telling me about his dreams, his secrets, he was hugging me. Then he drove me home with that same black car, he gave me a peck on my forehead and said something like, "love you bunz, remember what I said" before I got down the car. After I got down the car, I turned back and his black car became his daddy's white merz I was confused, for some reasons I didn't give him a call or do anything but I just kept walking to the lift and he appeared there out of a sudden I screamed, he and grab behind me very tightly, it was very painful and I could hear his heartbeat, it was beating profusely.. I was scared and he was mumbling some stuff I don't know what was he talking but I was just crying and crying...

And I woke up. And the dream became familiar, I remember them. It was a 'remix' of what happened to us before. I felt better obviously..

• Starting from his dreams to the part where I got off his car - I've forgotten when but I was at his house, he was study and I fell asleep, he woke me up by hugging me (I was half awake by then) telling about his dreams and secrets. And he drove me home, gave me a pek on my head and told me "love you bunz, remember what I said"
  

• The daddy's Merz part - was when his car broken down and he drove me home with his dad's car.

• This is part that made me cry. The part where he appeared out of a sudden, was when we quarreled and I broke up with him, I was out with my friends that day, I turned off my phone, and he was waiting by the lift for me and gave me a shock when I saw him as it was very quiet and late that night.. We were shouting at each other and I said I wanna go home, then he held me so tightly in his arms that I could hear his heart beat, he told me that he didn't wanna lose me over stupid things and his words were so painful and I cried. And I forgave him, cos I was in the wrong anyway. Ha ha.

I cried more in the dream than when it happened. Anyone knows what's the reason? Arghhh.. And it's not supposed to be a touching story here. Anyway! Wanted to meet Ruodan and her boyfriend to kbox or shesha but I was lazy to prepare. So yeap. I'm just gonna take a bath and go to bed. Might be meeting Derick and his friends later at night. I told him that I don't know how to communicate with people of their kind anymore and he scolded me. Ha ha. I mean it.

OH AND MY CLOSET IS TOO SMALL FOR ANYMORE CLOTHES. No more space. I need a bigger cupboard :@ Arghh.

Labels: Expectations are often disappointments.