I was having fun. I think you could tell from my lips.

I have so many people to love. (But some doesn't appreciate and some are not worth for loving)
I wish I had someone to be with. (It isn't good though)

People around me(including myself) had been complicating me with the word love. With the things they do, they say, their thoughts when it comes to love just confuses me. For a minute they might be kissing, and all loving. For another minute they punch, swear and get all fed up with each other and the next moment they break up. Is this love? What is love? Is it just some sweet talk, sex, hugs, kisses, holding hands, company, money, or quarrels and breakups when they get sick of each other? Or all of the above? It could be done by everyone with anyone or maybe with everyone. Maybe you would think that all I'm typing here is craps now if you're in love or maybe if I'm wrong. But why must there be "that person"? Is there really such thing as "that only one"? To me, "that person" will only bring you pain. When ever someone steps into a relationship, she'd/he'd say "he/she is my last, my true love, the one I'm longing for, the one I will be forever." But who knows? You could get a divorce after you get married too. But if you love as a normal friend, you'll be spared from all the pain. Wait a minute, maybe not all. Just lesser pain :) Sometimes love just happens too quick. I call this life instead of love. Just have fun with everything.

As for me and as you can see, I'm really not ready for a relationship. I can't accept myself for who I am and I won't even accept anyone who can accept me for who he thinks I am. I just feel so insecure.

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