- Geraldine is my name. Pink is my colour and white comes along. I love cupcakes. I might be childish in actions but I think like an adult when there's a need to, I can be very ridiculous, stubborn and unreasonable at times. I tend to get impatient then I try to explain things. I love Lil wayne and Jay-Z but Weezy more. I am not weak but I cry, very easily. It's stupid to hate someone pretty. Chances to me are unlimited on the one who deserves it. I can't express myself well verbally, and I can express myself better through words. You don't have to understand anything here because it's my thoughts and feelings. But welcome, if we're on the same boat :)
Jan 8, 2011,2:02 AM
|| Him.
I'm afraid this 'love' wouldn't last for long.
I can't feel his 'love'.
He isn't the kind of guy I expect..
And the same for him. I'm not the kind of girl he thinks I am.
I don't believe everything he say.. Cos I always have this thinking that all guys are the same. And who should I blame?!!! All the guys who talked to me and told me they 'love' me.
Love is complicated. And I hate it..
Shouldn't we just stop all this now? No wait, stop what?! I really wanna tell him that we should just be normal friends.. As in normal.. Just normal.. And not contact with each other so much. I'm really tired of being a person I'm not.
All my ex boyfriend should know that I'm not the kind of girl who pacifies them A LOT.... Maybe once or thrice... (It's either take it or leave it) Or to be shouted at... Being ignored... And to be talked to RUDELY. Makes me angry.. And the type who waits for their messages.. Who calls them first, and find something to say.. And the type of girl who likes to gets jealous and angry all the time and forgive them after a stupid word "SORRY".. To be going to bed before I sleep.. (even a guy who isn't my boyfriend waits for me to go to bed first before he does) But I'm doing the otherwise now... And its because of him. I don't find the reason to be tolerating all this.. I am just not that kind of girl.... I tried to give up him many times. With the thinking (he's also not the only guy that I have & not one of the best guys) and many people had been telling me that he isn't worth and that won't end up with happiness, we won't get married, you're still young, take you and ZH for an example, he is not serious, give it up, many better guys are after you out there, he doesn't deserve you doing all this cos that's a guy's job.
Friends are telling me that he is a damn lucky guy, but why don't I feel lucky at all? He don't deserve all this treatments from me. He ain't giving me the security I need.. I just feel that there are other girls. Whatever it is, If I ever have this feeling again, I will leave on my own accord, without any text messages to him anymore. I'm very serious this time.